Stuttering made me avoid so many things in my teenage life,things that even remotely involved talking. One of those things were learning to ride a motorcycle. I know that you don't have to talk to a motorcycle in order to ride it, but i had negative thoughts crawl into my mind every time i thought of riding, like "its not like i'm going anywhere,even if i know how to ride" or "i dont have any friends, who will i go to on a bike?". (it would look weird to my neighbours and family if they saw me talking to a bike, they would think that i like to talk to machines rather than people or that i'm crazy).
But recently , i decided to get over this fear or false beliefs of mine, i decided i will learn to ride finally, i will face these thoughts and check out their viability.
So, it was early morning yesterday, that i took the keys of my brother's bike, and went outside. i had never rode a bike before, i did have a minor accident on a scooter once, and that too made me averse to bikes. My experience of driving a car helped me greatly to get used to the bikes gearing mechanism fairly quickly. I was really anxious at first but as i rode on, i got more and more comfortable. I rode for about half an hour.
I wondered in my mind that if i thought earlier that i would be too weak to do this, that i would fail, and i proved myself wrong, i could as well change or prove wrong my beliefs about people's reaction to my stutter.
When i came home, my dad asked me "did you ride?"..i said yes,, i thought he would be angry,,but he was'nt.
More or less , i was so happy that i faced this fear or passivity of mine, and that i am facing my "stuttering mindset", by writing in this blog. The credit for this change in me goes to TISA.....thanks again..!!!
But as i said before , there is a long way to go.....
But recently , i decided to get over this fear or false beliefs of mine, i decided i will learn to ride finally, i will face these thoughts and check out their viability.
So, it was early morning yesterday, that i took the keys of my brother's bike, and went outside. i had never rode a bike before, i did have a minor accident on a scooter once, and that too made me averse to bikes. My experience of driving a car helped me greatly to get used to the bikes gearing mechanism fairly quickly. I was really anxious at first but as i rode on, i got more and more comfortable. I rode for about half an hour.
I wondered in my mind that if i thought earlier that i would be too weak to do this, that i would fail, and i proved myself wrong, i could as well change or prove wrong my beliefs about people's reaction to my stutter.
When i came home, my dad asked me "did you ride?"..i said yes,, i thought he would be angry,,but he was'nt.
More or less , i was so happy that i faced this fear or passivity of mine, and that i am facing my "stuttering mindset", by writing in this blog. The credit for this change in me goes to TISA.....thanks again..!!!
But as i said before , there is a long way to go.....
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